Hi @Rockdog 

I'm sorry you have had to go through all of that. It sounds like you are having a difficult time, which is totally understandable. 

@Kyle1 is right, you need to give yourself time to grieve. 

I hope in time you can find some peace in your life and move forward from here.

Please use these forums as a support. I have met some wonderful people on here. Even better is we all have lived experiences of mental illness, so can relate to one another a lot easier.

Hope to see you around the forums.