Oh @Kyle1 I know that feeling well... I've known it from childhood.  The oppression from abuse seems pervasive, it seeps into everything we do.even though the shame shouldn't be ours. Perhaps we've made a start towards self-empowerment by reclaiming our voice and naming it.

I remember a friendly barista - I still remember his face and name - who buoyed me up when I was being bullied in a new job. Don't underestimate it. 

Breath deeply and step out - if not confidently at first, at least with faith in yourself - and know that you matter.