@Lost9 

Thank you. I mostly get concerned about sharing my story because I'm petrified people won't listen, I will be abandoned cause they can't cope or they will just abandon me altogether. I suffered terribly after I left with those things happening to me. It tore me apart. A now ex friend whom I loved and adored ghosted me. I was at a point of really taking my life. After that I completely stopped trusting everyone. I get scared to risk opening up again for that to happen to me.