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All I can say in this moment is these few things. It was the hardest time for me in going through with this restraining order. Mentally, physically and emotionally. This may make no sense to anybody else but it does to me and that's what matters. It broke my heart to do it. Why? Because I wish things could have turned out differently at times. 

Aside from that, gosh she lost big time. She lost a sexy, beautiful, intelligent, funny, loving, caring, talented, interesting, fantastic in bed, amazing, full of surprises, quirky, different and special person. 

No, I don't have tickets on myself, I just know I was worth more than I was given, worth more than she treated me, it was way less than I deserved, she lied to me, betrayed me, used me, abused me, controlled me, manipulated me and didn't know how to love me or what love even was. I was actually too good for her. She was hitting way below her belt. I treated her well, adored her in fact, loved her with everything I had but everything was a whole damn lie and game to her. The shame is on her. Her life will never amount too much. I tried to help her improve her life, she didn't want it. It was a waste of my time. The truth is there was never a moment I wasn't being abused. 

I fully expect myself to go through heavy emotions and more pain. For me it's over, was over the day I ended it. Now when she is served with the restraining order, that's my final message. You can't abuse me anymore, this is the consequences of your choices and you are damn lucky this is all I'm doing. Taking my power back now.