Sounds like you're experiencing what I call "the unfamiliar zone". Seems to happen a lot during times of upheaval. Sometimes we get new ways of feeling and we haven't developed the self-talk to define it. That can put people into that eerie, in between schemas, state. I'm never a huge fan of that experience and sounds like you're going through a big one. It's a sign of growth though and an opportunity. Keep the reflections up. There's probably an acorn of an emotion that's trying to reconnect with you. Dock with you, the mother-ship, as it were.

I'm sending sending prayers and vibes.