@Sam3 

Thank you. Partly it is about the money. It keeps me going. Financially my ex leaving is costing me big. Most of all though, I do it for my joy and my customers joy. For my joy, the pleasure of fixing something I know nothing about usually and then actually repairing it. It gives me a sense of a job well done. Each job brings its own joy. Each customer brings its own joy. This particular customer id a single mum who bought the pram second hand. She got ripped off as the lady who sold it to her did not tell her the brakes didn't work and would not give a refund. 

This customer is so happy I have fixed it. For me, they come to me feeling sad and they come back feeling happy. Just my way of things at the moment. It's a win/win. 

I assure you, I'm.not able to function and do much else. I have not showered in three days and I'm usually just sitting around not really doing anything useful or I'm sleeping. 

I get frustrated and very angry sometimes with my MI. Especially since I didn't cause it. CPTSD with chronic depression and severe anxiety. I don't think I've really ever come to acceptance of the diagnosis. It is definitely correct, just hard to accept. At this point in time I'm not really up.for socialising. It usually doesn't end up well so I just mind my own business and carry on. Remember this though, just because of an MI doesn't make anything new better than you. There is people that do not have a MI that truly just suck as people.