Thank you @Anastasia xxx Thank you @Former-Member 

I wish this was one big prank instead if being real. I hate that I can still remember what it felt like to be in her arms, back when it felt safe and when she absolutely loved having me there. I guess I'm so vulnerable at the moment and it feels like such a long time ago that we even hugged. I have to try be strong. It hurts a heck of a lot. I also know how it feels to be abandoned and rejected by her. It's the not wanting or needing that in my life anymore and then the sadness and loss for the person you once had. That person disappeared pretty fast in the end and was replaced with no real show of any love or affection. I just wanted to be loved, heard, seen and happiness. I know all people have gone through loss and endings of relationships. I just feel very sad and am also tired of the rollercoaster at the same time.