@Anastasia 

Well, I hope you see this one. Must be an issue with the system. I am actually very confused in this moment. Confused, vulnerable, worried and not at all sure what it means. The whole day today she has been nice to me. It feels really weird @Anastasia  

I mean I am sure by now you have picked up in my posts that she just doesnt talk to me. Not at all. She was nice to me yesterday as well but even nicer to me today. These are the things she did. I am super bust till the end of this week with work. I have to really focus hard on what I am doing cause there is a lot to get through. Today, she verbally asked me how it was all going? Then later in the afternoon she sent me a text saying that she was going shopping and could she get me anything? I was completely baffled. I replied and said I would think if I needed anything and get back to her. That in itself is strange. I do not have a car and she does. I lost my transport so have only jusy now started to get my own independance back with finding my own way around. She has never asked me prior to this. I mean since we parted. 

Anyhow, Ive asked for three items I did need. One of them, you really have to look closely or you could pick the wrong one and I let her know that. She replied and said I will make sure I get you the right one. I was like thinking in my head, WTF is going on here???? Then she came out to make her dinner. I was working away. Last night she offered me dinner and I said no thanks, I have enough food for myself. Then tonight she said do you still have enough food for yourself. I said yes, I am good thanks. Then she said if you want any of my dinner there is a lot there. I said oh ok thanks. Today she bought the bin in as it was bin night last night. Usually I would have been left to do it. 

I know people do nice things and that is normal. I'm just saying given the history, it is making me feel confused and uncertain why she is being so nice to me. I will not ask her. My guard is still very much up and my heart is very closed off. I am just not sure what to do with this at the moment. I am not sure what to think or do. Im confused, vulnerable and I really have to focus on my work as I have a deadline. 

I am not sure I can get through this.