The last few months have been insane for me. The last two months have been the worst. I've been couch and bed bound. Unable to do ANYTHING around the house. Going to the toilet and having a shower can be difficult. 
I've had constant nausea, gagging and vomiting EVERY DAY for TWO MONTHS. I just want it to go away. I'm done, can't do this anymore. It started as withdrawals from a medication but has seemed to have turned into something else. As withdrawals don't usually last this long. The current theory is that the original withdrawal symptoms just destroyed my stomach lining and that's why It's continued. On top of this I haven't had sleep in 3 weeks. 3 weeks ago I completely stopped off of my medication of 9 years. It helped me sleep. I hoped that I'd be able

to work on the insomnia without medication and to be able to conquer it. My mind said hell no. My psychologist said my insomnia is too severe and she doesn't know how to help me, so she referred me to a insomnia specialist and she couldn't help me either. I've been to a sleep clinic to be tested and nothing was physically found to be wrong. So I'm currently stuck, no medical professional knows how to help me. With my therapist and psychiatrist we have found that my sleeping issues isn't due to anxiety, stress, over thinking or trauma (or mental health at all). I follow all sleep hygiene, do mindfulness. I go to bed calm, happy and relaxed and I just won't sleep. I've tried herbal medication which did nothing, I've tried 3 other sleep medications that didn't work. Then today. I finally got a script for a strong sleeping medication, which I was told would knock me out for 12 hours. I was so happy to finally get some sleep. 
But here I am writing this essay at 12:30pm because no the miracle drug I was hoping for failed. It did the complete opposite. It made me feel completely awake and euphoric. At least I won't be crying due to not sleeping tonight. This 'sleep' medication has given me the giggles and I can't stop laughing. Even though I'm getting no sleep again tonight, I'm grateful that I've been able to have some happy time. I really need it right now. 
I'll enjoy the giggles and happiness until my migraines, nausea, gagging, vomiting and hullucinations reappear. Yep migraines and hullucinations are because I've had no sleep in 3 weeks.