@Historylover I'm listening. They are all gone. I got rid of them. It left me with no one. I've accepted the pain I'm in is going to take quite some time to heal to a point where I'm able to function well in the world. 

I'm glad you have found that strength to carry through with that in life. I'm not yet strong enough, physically or mentally. I'm sleeping when I.need to. One of my issues is I am much too kind. Kindness is a nice attribute. I'm overly kind though to the point where I will overlook bad behaviour towards me. I think if I show more love and kindness they will eventually learn to treat me like that too. That is the thinking that needs to go. It needs to go cause it has kept me in situations and with people I should leave and have left. 

I'm very tired all the time so I just give it time. I'm pretty washed out. I also have work, study and so on so yeah it's a good distraction. I've been suck for two days so work hasn't really happened. 

Thank you for reaching out @Historylover