@Former-Member I completely understand being uncomfortable around males and arguments. I alsowill only see female doctors - only females in any setting actually. I willnot be alone anywhere with a male. Just the other day I was about to get on an elevator and when the doors opened there was one man in there - I pretended I had forgotten something and waited for the next one - I found myself shaking and very anxious around something so small!

I am extremely lucky to have the extraordinary support of my GP (and my psychologist up until now) but aside from that I am also doing it in my own - with the exception of the people here on the forum. It is a very loney place to be but I have no other choice. There are certainly days when I just can't see forward and there are days when the past is all consuming - but I can say that being part of this community has 'held my hand' and kept me going. 

@Former-Member if you extend your hand for support here - you will receive that and so much more. You are not alone - we are with you