Welcome @Aqualemonade 

I can understand at least to some extent your story (everyone's story has their own nuance). I have been in a very similar place as you. I recently retired because I thought my MH was too bad, including feeling fatigued all the time. Forced myself to keep going with sport and trying to do social stuff if invited, but no motivation and felt I got very little joy out of anything. Didn't really initaite anything myself. I don't have kids - so didn't have then as a distraction. Although I cooked I felt I could eat little and lost some weight.

After retirement I then felt I had lost my worth to society and struggled to find meaning (these are both ongoing, but not to same degree). I am slowly getting my energy back, I can think more clearly I still have fatigue but I make myself do things and have joined some new things including volunteering, being part of the forums, all of which has helped.

So although I am not some recovery "star" it is possible to recover, it's taking a while, but not forever, so there will be people on the forums in some stage of a similar journy to walk with you, offer strategies etc. I hope you get something out of interacting with us