i hear you @hairdog there's been times when i've had similar thoughts too, and i'm still here. i believe in you, and we'll sit by your side as you fight your battles.

please do be kind to yourself, sometimes we tend to put so much pressure on ourselves to improve/do better - but we're only humans. it's okay if you stumble on the way, our healing journey's aren't linear. they can go up, down, up, down, down, up, up... but the point is, we're always moving forwards despite the ups and downs. 

you got this!!