@PeppyPatti my doctor is amazing and has always been a great support for me. It's just that today's appointment had to very quickly change to being focused on my heart. I don't have anyone in my life at all other than my doctor. 

I'm just done with this, I've woken up having another full on panic attack even after taking multiple tablets like my doctor said to. It's just not helping. I can't take it anymore. I've lost every bit of strength and hope I had to try to make it through this. I just can't anymore, i want to make it all stop.