@Lila3 

I am glad you feel sheltered, I recently changed my username actually. I am liking this new one! It represents hope in recovery for me. 
I want you to know that I see you in your struggles and having been there myself I understand. It’s the worst feeling ever and not knowing if or when it’s ever going to stop or end. I wish there were more mental health placements for less acute cases. In WA they do have Neami step up step down units for less severe cases but it’s only a 28 day stay and you have to do things whilst there like help make dinner every 3 or 4 nights. But they work with you on yourself. Help you see your talents and strengths. Work on resilience and self esteem. Basically whatever you want to work on but there is a waiting list and you have to go to an interview. Get your support worker to refer you.