I definitely lack assertiveness in putting across my needs.
I don't yet know if this is because of the strong personalities I have had to communicate with, past trauma or a lack of confidence.

This makes it impossible for me to have relationships because I avoid conflict to the point where I boil and then it all comes out of the blue completely and incoherently.

This would be life changing for me if I could learn to communicate openly. I'm hoping it's because I haven't found the right person yet.

but I would be lying if I didn't say it has me worried.