Dear @Zoe7 

I believe that you are doing the best for you.

The fact that you are able to express all of your feelings for everything that has happened as leading up to the day is so traumatic also, is a credit to you.

This is helping your grieving and also helping you remind yourself that your other loved animal family need you more too. Yes you are right, they definitely are aware.

Again people who do not have pets who are a part of their family do not think this way.

As for all of Cat's possessions they are best left where they are.

I believe to clear up the belongings too soon would not be helpful to you or your Toby and Clover. They need to adjust to her things still being there whilst they come to some sort of comfort about her not coming back.

Lovely that the garden was not already used; Perhaps Cat had already worked out where she wanted to be and helped you know this when needed.

Your love rings out loud and clear. This love will not go anywhere in fact for me I believe my love has grown even stronger which I did not think that it could.

Love can do that though. It bends and changes and adapts and stays with those of us who are open to this.

Keep on tagging me if you feel up to it.

You might sometimes want to just pass by.

Your grief will change how you feel and what you want to do so go with that.

Your friends on the forum will support you in what you decide is best for you. 

This is a lovely corner to land actually and dear @Oaktree will be here for you also.

You will probably flutter to other threads which is what butterflies need.

I shall think of you, Cat, Toby and Clover everytime I go out into the back garden corner.

We lit little tea candles and sat with him days later. We had not built on the land at that time so he was the first one here. True to life. He was a head butter.

We did the same for his sister who had to leave this world a few weeks after our home was finished and we moved in. We knew that she did not have long.

We visited her and laid tea candles and talked to them both.

Not everyone wants to be this way. Some might say not letting go. I would say why do I have to let go?

This is who I am and I sense that you are similar. 

Have as restful a night as you can xxx💜💚💗