This thread is a little confusing & I hope I'm not posting the wrong thing. This is a
letter I would like to send to a family member who is unique to me, the only one
of their kind. But in reality sending it would not help the situation. I'm hoping
posting it from a virtual post office, will help me - that's all.

Dear Family Member,

I am still so totally devastated by what you did and how you treated me when I needed your
love and support the most; but I also still love you, all of these feelings will never stop.
You have condemned me to the most bitter conflict of emotions until the end of my time.
You have done that, your decisions, your actions - why?
I've always done my best for you, I know that simply being an individuals best, does not
mean it's good enough. If your doing your best, it's not good enough for me. It seems
we're not good enough for each other, and that is the saddest thing I've ever had to come
to terms with, I know I never really will.
I was a huge influence in your life, so I have to accept my part in the responsibility of how
you developed the thoughts & emotions that led to your actions. So I want to tell you I'm
sorry. I'm sorry for all the hurt you've received and all the hurt you've caused, for all the
anger & confusion, for all the regret and missed opportunities.
You are a good person. Nobody really knows another, I'd go as far as to say nobody really
knows themselves. Every new experience reveals a new aspect, for everyone, including
ourselves. I spent a lot of time with you throughout your life, until our connection was
lost. In that time you gave me so much joy, pride, love & such a deep feeling of belonging.
That's why it hurts so much now.
I miss all the positives you gave me for all that time. So I want to Thank you. Thank you
for the love and support, for the family and the special memories we made, for the bond
we shared for so long and the feeling that we belonged together. It is the loss of those
things that is so devastating.
I want you to know you do not owe me any money, what you would have received paid
out the bank & all other debt - that I do want to tell you, hurt a lot, how much you were
willing to take. I also want you to know it has left me with very little.
Despite the whirlwind twisting hurricane of emotions, I still think you were worth it. I hope
it helped you & your children, I hope your life is better now.
I love you.