@Maggie 

Thank you. Oh yes, lots of mess definitely. I am however an organised and tidy person. My tools get a clean afterwards every time. I clean up.after a day's work. I don't yet have a workshop. That is in the pipeline for next year. Yes, though it is immensely satisfying and I do love it. 

This is true Maggie. The pain is very much there. Lots of it. I think.about two years of recovery is more than fair to say. I have not even begun. I did however go to my first session this week with a new therapist. It was a good decision. My old therapist wasn't right for me. I wasn't ready to talk about many things. I'm.ready, but it has to be with the right person. Hopefully this will go ok? 

Thank.yiu do much for seeing me. Amongst all of this, I can still see and see you too. 

Oh, the past back again. Unwanted and Unexpected. I'm sorry that it happened. I have no doubt it triggered a lot and sometimes there's just places we don't want to go ever again. I hope you are being very kind and gentle with yourself. 

I understand what you mean about others looking so successful when you are broken. I will.say this though, that is very rarely true. It depends on how one measures success and what areas of life they are measuring success too. Comparison Maggie is never a good idea. Just putting another spin on things. Perhaps you could look at what your ideas are of being successful is. Not anyone elses success, your success. 

I hope your little baby is getting well. Our pets usually often are our life and lifeline. I'm absolutely wanting a fog do bad but can't have one where I live. 

I took.the day off work today and may do so again tomorrow. I did go to Bunnings and Spotlight to get some things, but that's all. 

Sending you love and strength.