I feel the heavy as well. I never know how to feel at this time of year. I can spot insincerity and comercialization a mile away. Not having a close family I just don’t feel I can try again this year. My hubby has one brother but they are not close either.  I love the idea of Xmas but I don’t think I have enjoyed it for decades upon decades. A glimmer of a lovely few years when my son was growing up but we were on our own for many years. It’s only one day. Then the madness of all the sales begin ALL OVER again. Our town is very prosperous and beautiful this year but taken over with tourists for the next few weeks. Keeping away is the best option for us. I hope the heavy lifts for us both maybe tomorrow or the next day.

The lake at the bottom of the hill. Peacefulness.