Hello @Shaz51 & everyone. Thanks so much for including me in this talk.

I am aware of these things that I need to do, but I struggle to do them for various reasons. 6 years I spent isolating myself and doing nothing due to my Major Depression. So all motivation was gone. Now that I am in full remission for a year now (yay, go me!!!) and no longer have any depressive symptoms due to my miracle medication, I find that I still lack motivation most days, but I do try to push through that. My Depression and 2 strokes have seriously damaged my memory and also my ability to study and learn new things. The way I used to learn, through reading, looking at instructions, listening, they no longer work, and Im not sure how I can learn any more.

Volunteering in local community is all good. Problem is in my small town, charities are run by very conservative, gossipy, religious, non compassionate people, who don't want any feedback or new ideas. They just want you to do the grunt work. No further participation needed. So it is not actually condusive to creating friendships. The bigger towns around the area, have more volunteering charities and appear a lot friendlier. But then when you are struggling with money, putting in petrol for over a 100km trip return, is just not feasiable.

Do what you are good at. Easy. No. I lost my interests during those years with depression. I wanted to start new interests, ballroom dancing and yoga, but Covid has shut that down.

I dont have any artistic ability. I can knit basic. And I used to knit when I had problems with my mild anxiety. It helped me to focus on something else. But i want to keep it as a tool for anxiety. Not for everuday use. And there is only so many squares or scalfs you can create. So I struggle because nothing intetests me. No learning an instrument or language. And to have inface learning, I need to drive to those big towns. Expensive and we are in Lockdown in Victoria again.

I have joined an online Mindfulness class. It is 31 day practice and instructions and interviews. I put money aside to join it and it wasnt overly expensive. I am really enjoying this and think it will really help me with my issues to learn how to deal with my emotions in a normal healthy way.

I do watch an occassional intetview via the internet if it is on something I like.

Didn't mean to make my answer so negative. I could have just put, I struggle with this. Lol.