So good to hear from you @Owlunar  and thank you for your well wishes.  It hurts no matter how much I pretend it doesn't.  I've done my best for everyone and deserve much better than this.  I don't claim to have been always a perfect person but I can claim to have been the best person I can be in the circumstances life handed me.  And I certainly wouldn't do to anyone what has been done to me.

I really hurt today.  

When is your birthday so that I can make a note to send you a personal message on yours.  I can't promise cake and a card because I have never been able to figure out how to send pictures which are allowed!  So pleased your family holds you dearly.  You are so very lucky - and deserve nothing less.