Hey guys,
Would really appreciate some advice here, so thanks in advance.
An opportunity has cropped up with work, and I need to either say yes or no to it today. It's the kind of thing that I need to say yes to, it's exposure, free advertising, will drive sales, but... It's going to mean talking, answering questions, getting photos taken... Normally, yeah, I'd do it. I'm not at all comfortable doing things like this but for the sake of my business I do it. It takes a lot of mental prep for me, and ideally more notice so I can get myself in the right headspace, but I can get myself there. I want to say yes, but... The past few days have kind of kicked my ass... I'm not sure I can get my head in gear this time.
If I say yes, it's going to put me under a lot of mental stress--which probably isn't what I need right now--but it will be great for business. I don't like letting my mental health issues interfere with my ability to work or run my business. And so far, I haven't let it get in the way. If I say yes, and do it, what if I end up making a di*k of myself? What if I can't get my head in gear? What if I wake up tomorrow and it's a no go and I have to cancel last minute?
But what if I say no? I'm going to hate myself for it, for giving into the sh*t in my head, for letting it get on top of me, for not being stronger. I want to say no, but is the backlash of saying no going to be more punishing than the stress I'd be under if I say yes?
I feel like both options are going to cause me grief, I'm not sure which way to go here. I've spent the past couple days feeling incapable of getting out of bed, I'm doing better, but probably not going to be able to pull my head in for a while with this one. It's disappointing to say no, but I'm not sure I have it in me to say yes right now. But I know I'm going to hate myself if I don't take advantage of this opportunity... I'm not sure which is going to be worse...
Fu*k this is just sh*t. I'm really honestly not capable of much right now, and that is pathetic and disappointing and I wish I was better at coping with all this sh*t.
What should I do?
