Good morning all

just replying @CheerBear, @Faith-and-Hope and anyone else reading. 

Im home now and was a bit sad to come home but the way they structure the program you really feel like you need to come home for a rest day. It is going out everyday doing multiple things. We did get to do some art. We had a watercolour class and I had a go at watercolours for the first time. We also had craft time to make cards. There is lots of art stuff in the house so when you are not out you can create until you drop if you want. During the day, the person on is very crafty and arty so there is heaps of amazing support there too. My time was very different to being home. 

I learned lots about myself while I was away. 

@CheerBear I’m thinking of you and hoping that things are going ok for you. Me thinks you might need respite too at some point. Always good for a check in when you are ready. 

@Faith-and-Hope I came home inspired. I researched a bit last night but went in circles. I also saw the price of getting my own art stuff and it’s way out of my league for now. I looked up art groups at community centres but there is not much my way. Most of them you have to take your own art gear as well. It’s ok though because I think I need to explore what it is that I want to do for now as well. I’m thinking lots of YouTube and Pinterest to see. I also learned that I get stuck in my head too much about what I think it should look like instead of going with the flow of creating. I’m sure that doesn’t surprise any of you. 

This is what I attempted to recreate in watercolour. I gave up but now looking back I learned lots during the process. I’d love to have another go sometime.

Im thinking I may not be on the forum much (but everytime I write this it’s not true :face_with_rolling_eyes:) except for maybe sticking around here on this thread. I’m more than happy for anyone else to join us here but find I’m getting overwhelmed too easily when I join other threads. It feels like I’m in a headspace where I need to explore who I am and how to integrate back into the real world again. I know my moods will change still and be erratic but I’m hoping I’m finding my baby steps forward. I discovered when I was away how petrified I am of not getting it right for anything and melted down quite a few times so that’s my focus a bit for now. 

Im also feeling very selfish but am struggling with absorbing too much pain of too many lately thus hanging around here a bit. I hope that will change and I find more balance again but for now I’m going to see how it goes. 

Edit... @CheerBear please don’t feel like this precludes you from writing about your stuff. I am connecting with much of it in a helpful way knowing I have this to go through with my parents at some stage. It is a bit like preparing me from what is to come. 

Soo after my long dribble post 😳 I saw this @CheerBear and thought of you because it had the word unicorn in it and then chuckled because this is my type of unicorn.

hugs to all 💜🤗