@Former-Member

I like it when i have my head above water. (All I'm basically doing is treading water anyway ) living week too week. Month too month (injection too injection ) i get very overwhelmed if my usual routine is broke. And do indeed struggle immensely with all the extra stuff in life. (Feelings of going under or backward or making bad decisions are horrible )

I'm always relying on professional support (nurses / crisis line people / doctors / friends and family ) i prefer it when things are simple. But it's never that easy. I am weak. I am vulnerable. I am disabled. I am mentally ill. I could easily get taken advantage of in many different ways. And basically am anyway. (That's how it feels) Got too roll with the punches as they say. (I just trust and have faith ) Being Medicated is a huge hindrance and i believe actually impairs me! Big time. But the lesser evil then my illness in full swing.

Looking after myself as I'm sure you know. Consists of rent. Power. Water. Phone credit. Food. Fuel. Essentials. Cigarettes. A few luxuries. There is stuff like rego. Car maintenance. (Mechanics ) Clothes. Shoes. Socks. Jocks. Linen. Towels. Stuff for hygiene. Crockery. Cutlery. Electrical items. Stuff for my pets. Food. Vet bills. Shouting friends. Insurances and covering myself. Entertainment. And so on.... the list goes on an on an on. I don't get much each fortnight. But luckily. I get concession on rent. Power. Water. Free medical and dental. Pensioner concessions here and there. It's a hectic little procedure. Got to be smart. Wise and make good decisions. (It dont change much though )

I'm doing quite well in this sense. But there is always something else. And essentially. It will never make me happy. It won't guarantee my health. It doesn't ensure I'm loved and can be loved. It doesn't ensure i have friends. It don't stop bad things happening to my family. It don't make me a good person. It doesn't fix my issues. But basically, it's just what life is about....... i thought to myself before. Even if i had heaps of money? What is there i can spend it on anyway? Sad but true. It doesn't fix my illness or problems.

It's one thing to waste to waste money. It's another to spend it wisely. It's hectic either way you look at it. Trying to get ahead and get in front is a curse.

Consumerism and Economy.

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Eude