@Former-Member

Good morning. I hope you are feeling well today. As for me. It is a case of back to the drawing board. And feeling very unwell. Too say the least. I will not go into explaining my feelings. About my circumstances. As there is nothing that can really be done about the causes behind them. Plus. You have probably already given me your opinon about this. Which is right, logical and rational.

My phone is causing me great stress. I turn too connecting with people through my phone. And it really does give me brain a good work out. And basically. Burn me out and fatigue me. Not an ideal scenario. So many times i have called the call centre. Messaged people in an attempt to help. Messages to the radio station. The forum. Social media. It is a very degrading and demoralizing loop i am stuck in. I have been through a few phone based relationships. They have been great support and both have gotten good things from the friendship. It is just not what i would call ideal.

I kind of do it too myself. Bye getting caught up in consumerism. Fixate myself on problems of this world. (Instead of worrying about mental peace) my inability to make wise and concise decisions. Thinking that things around me on the Internet are a set up to help me out. Because people pity me and my miserable life. Trying to set myself up.

There is a 2006 ford xt mark 2 with 189.000km on the Internet. Good condition. Asking price 3.000.00 reduced from 3.995.00 so i start desiring it. (Dreaming ) And become fixative about acquiring it. Lusting and desiring too obtain and make it mine. Counting my pennies. But not wanting to sacrifice the other stuff i had planned to buy. Hahaha. Is this making sense? And essentially it is window shopping consumerism. The man who is selling the car is moving interstate. And probably keen to sell. Could offer him 2.000.00 and run with it. See if it works.

Got other stuff that will need money. Desexing purrpurr. Vaccinating mister. New shoes. Clothes. I already have a good car! But just wanna upgrade. Want something different. More newer. More reliable. More modern. I know what happens with cars. They need money spent on them.

I currently got a 1994 nc ford fairlane ghia auto 4.0i ohc. Should be doing this on car forum. Lol. It's only got 150.000 on the clock and I've put around 3.500.00 into maintaining it over past 3 years. And I'd be lucky to get 1.000.00 if i sold it.

So 😟

Decisions decisions decisions.

Eude