Hi @eudemonism,

Sounds like your visit was good to get out of your own head space. Sometimes it can be loud and amplified, i know. I got my art supplies depsite the constant conversation between various internakl critics and voices. Have done a sketch and would like to bring it to life with oil pastels on slightly larger scale. Deciding on colours still. There is some argument internally of course with art critic 'friend'. 

Sorry to hear the weather is really was not pleasant enough to go to beach. But a visit with your friend would have been just as nice i am sure. Its good you have a journal to vent in. I have a journal as well. In it i put only positive things. I don't want to remember the bad days. I do vent my negative thoughts but i only keep them on seperate bits of paper and rip them up when the mood passes as sort of a celebration for getting passed that emotional hurdle or a bad day with the voices and internal audio etc.I refer back to the journal to keep me positive. That is why i only put nice things in it. I used to vent in the note section of my iphone. Then i remembered that it kind of isn't private so i went old fashioned and got a hard copy one. Its great. You can stick whatever in it. You can't do that with an electronic journal.

I understand your interest in faith. I am not a religious person pesay but I am a spiritual person. Our beliefs and belief system can be useful in helping us cope during times of personal crisis. Mine certainly keeps me believing in the strength of humanity and that with unity comes acceptance of all people depsite their differences in not only their abilities but also their differences in faith and opinions on other things.

Hope it all works out well for you also... and peace be with you...