@Former-Member @Former-Member & @Former-Member sorry about ignoring youz but i figure i already knew what either of you had to say. And that i would not really wanna know about the help or referrals you could offer. Examples. Counselling techniques. Coping strategies. See the gp. See the psychologist. Volunteer. Start an education course. Exercise. Eat healthy. Sleep well. Look for work. Find a job. Attend appointments with drug and alcohol counselors. Mental health nurses. Psychiatrists. Crisis lines. and so on... i am pretty much churned out bye all stuff and heard everything they got to say. And what it has come between me and them. Is me telling it how it is. Being myself and also being what they want and need me to be. Too make the relationship functional. It's a hard act to follow. When they really just there for themselves at the start and end of the day. (Just like i am ) And they really do sweet stuff all to fix the problems i am faced with. Apart from treat the generalized label i been assigned and give me basic and practical life advice and living skills.

Basically, i am the same person. With the same abilities and levels of competency as i was two days before this system engaged with my life. So it an ironic situation! Plus, in all honesty! The same contributing factors which allowed me to be diagnosed, categorized, labeled and administered medication after they caged me like an animal... so i am really no closer to solving the actual problems then they are. Because perhaps the problem is not me! But a lack of support and basic human needs! Which i have always unfortunately been unable to provide myself with. And am still unable to do so...

Can you imagine how frustrating this must be for me? I aint denying that i got problems and I'm disabled. I'm standing up against the nonsense i have had too go through. Go through. And will go through. Just to survive. Makes life really not worth living as far as I'm concerned. But I'm lucky enough to have a lot of quiet time in my warm bed to block out all the nonsense i been put through. Go through and will have to go through. Just To survive. And feel half decent about myself. And give myself a false sense of independence. And ability to look after myself. And create a "quality if life "

There only so good a best case scenario can be. Before i realize i am clinically mentally ill. From outside causes that i am not in control of. And cannot really change how they effect me either. So i am hoping it is all making perfect sense... and also consider that medicatio side effects make it pretty god dam difficult.

Thats what i thinks about that.