Hi @L-B 

@tyme @MermaidHair @Shaz51 

Welcome to the forums,

I struggled with depression for many years. I wanted to end it all and even tried. But I can tell you that I am now glad to be here. My depression and anxiety have lifted and for the first time since diagnosis (1990) I feel relatively normal. I have bipolar so I still get little blips in my mood but for the last 3 years I have been so well. They did a medication review and finally gave me medication that wasn’t fighting with each other. There is hope. I know from experience how dark that hole of depression is but if you just hold on you will reach the other side of it eventually. There is a lot of support here on the forums and I wish you well in your recovery.