@Faith-and-Hope Eating disorders are SH adicting behaviour. My anorexia isn't body image as far as I'm aware. Though competition on the ward to be the lightest definitely was there. For me, I didn't/don't feel worthy of food, sometimes breathing air is greedy, but out of my control. Self hate. I believe from childhood. But like everything, everyone is different
Do you have a counsellor for you personally? You need support outside of couple counselling. As my social worker is an all rounder, could you find a social worker just for you? Do you have church support? I know when I was with my husband the church knew nothing of what went on behind closed doors. Then when he had an affair, I not only lost him but the church we were assistant pastors in. No one came to me. I have hundreds of whys, I'll never know the answer, then I walked out on the faith I had had for a lifetime, feeling forsaken by God also. If you have trusted church friends, lean on them, don't be afraid to do that.
You have support here, lean here also, it's self care maximum. You are really in a difficult situation.
I can't get this song sung for you as I only have it on cd. Not available on utube.
My child I knew you before the world began
I was there everytime you wrote your name in the sand
And lately I know you've been through quite a storm
But child I've been there since the day you were born
And I rule the wind Oh yes and I calm the sea
And the sun don't go down til I say it can leave
And as sure as my word I'll stand here right by your side
And if you're just too weak to go on
Remember child I'm your strong arm
Now people will wonder and they'll stand amazed
They'll say you are a miracle and I will be praised
And even though your pain has been so hard to bear
Just know that I am with you and there's no need to dispare
And I rule the wind oh yes and I calm the sea
And the sun don't go down til I say it can leave
And as sure as my word I'll stand here right by your side
And if you're just too weak to go on
Remember child I'm your strong arm. ❣❣
