Bipolar type 1

diagnosed 14 years ago

had to cease taking my lithium after 8 years. 

feeling more ups and downs now

learning to navigate it again

doing alright I guess 

but with the increased frequency and broader range of moods it's been an adjustment.

realising I havnt really been learning to cope or navigate the lows just been waiting for them to end I guess.

thats a hard one to explain aye

knowing the depression is real and intense but also having the prior experiences tell you that you just gotta ride it out cos THIS TOO SHALL PASS

until it doesn't one day and realise you havnt really had to pull yourself out of it in a long time thanks to a suppressed intensity making it more manageable and less of a crash