Hi all,

i'm a 64 year old male and have been diagnosed with Schizo effective disorder, and .P.T.S.D, from a sexual attack at 11, and near murder, and have suffered from clinical depression for most of my life, as well as suffered multiple psychoses, and hospitalizations.

i have often suffered suicidal depression, especially trying out new AD's, and before doctors realised that combo medications like anti-psychotics with AD's added, were very dangerous for me. (Always make sure that other loved ones are monitoring you as you try out new medications, for the wrong ones can have shocking effects, at times, within hours of taking them.)

Anyhow the last 10 years i have improved enormously psychosis wise. Good counseling where i was taught to let go of the bad life, my trauma memories brought up, in little bits, by little bits, rather than be overrun by the enormity, FULL LOAD, of such stored up bad life.

i found that although my strict religious upbringing made suffering a depressive illness much worse, that nevertheless faith in God's love, without the any more (religious) demands, is the very best way for me to survive my bad times.

Holding onto my identity, through applying love, has been by far the most powerful healing i have experienced.  For loving myself where i hated myself before, rather than, either excusing myself being horrible person raging, or scolding and despising myself for being such a horrible person, and instead letting love undo the bad moments, and replace them with good moments instead. This has done absolutely amazing miracles in my life.

Incredible what applying love, compassion, care, kindness, to oneself can do, when we are, in the often loveless, grip of depression. i do know that love is the most powerful force again despair, sadness, hopelessness, anger, guilt, shame and fear one could possible utilize fighting any feelings of unworthiness, lovelessness, self hate, anger, rage, anxiety, bitterness, or the likes.

Have a great day.

Some great impressions of the battles we face suffering from P.T.S.D, Depression, and/or psychosis. i think they are all by the great artist Inktober.