Hey @Anastasia  just checking in. My sister used to bite her nails to that extreme extent too, it seemed very painful but I think for her it was better than engaging in more intense self-harm behaviours. I've shared this image on the forums before because I think it's a brilliant way to frame coping skills, and destigmatise the ones that are considered unhealthy:

I think it's important to remember that they're still about coping, and sometimes coping like this is far better than not coping at all.

This is also why I wanted to touch base with the feeling of 'wanting to fall' - sounds like you're struggling to cope right now. I hope you've got some support around you? You're welcome to talk about how things are going if you feel it could be helpful