Where is meaning to be found in connections with other people?

I opened my diary from my travels last night before bed and found myself reading through my entries.

It reminded me of how when I was in NYC I kept remembering and thinking it wouod be nice to be doing this trip with someone special and dear to me.

I also remember an old friend of mine who did exactly that with his partner. But months later I found out they had been fighting a lot while there. Perhaps it was a maturity thing idk. Both were young and made silly choices.

I guess when I was in NYC I was curious about the world and I still am very much curious. I learned on that trip, how to see myself as an individual.

But on that topic of loneliness and romance. I am actually reminded of my grandparents and my parents as well who both travelled in their youth together. I felt like I had missed out on this. But I do believe there is time still.

Taking all that into account - better to be feeling the raw feeling of loneliness and desire for someone else to have close to you than to fill that void with an attitude that says "anyone is better than nothing".

Yes I felt loneliness this year.