Hey @Molliex  I  hope the new med works for you.  It will take some time, in the meantime I am here as well as other Forumites xx

I'm going okay. SH has stopped now for over a week.   I'm still having lots of anxiety.    I don't know what to do for Christmas lunch it's really difficult as it has to be vegan and we leave on Boxing day to travel to QLD to see my parents and my brother and his family.    I'm really anxious about it as I have a lot of trauma as my Father SA me as a child but denied it, I  have confronted him before and when my children were small we didn't speak for 7years.    But I reconnected with my parents 9 years ago and no one ever mentions the trauma, my  children don't know about it.    Anyway I have a tremor caused by one of my medications and when I am anxious it gets worse.   Anyway I am so concerned that when I first walk into my parents house I will look like a complete basket case with the tremor.   I have a relationship with my parents but they really know nothing about my mental health,  for me it's a choice to shut them out, it's a survival mechanism. 

Anyway, sorry if I have triggered you it's just where I am at atm.

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