Thank you @CheerBear @Maggie
Its to hard to talk much atm. Friday was way to hard. Every time i think i start to tear up so theres lots of distractions and 'hiding' its caused agreat deal of emotional pain and now theres alot of physical pain too. I think i will have to tell my mother at some point in time for this one but i cant yet.
I have a 2 hour drive today and will spend the time jn another area to sort some things out. Or what i can being a sunday anyway and then a 2 hr drive back. I need to get away so this sounds like a good opportunity to do that.

Thinking of you both, reading and sending love and hugs, just not many words atm 💜💚❤💙