@Evie1  I understand exactly what you're saying. Your head knows it's not your fault, but your emotions/feeling don't seem to agree. I've found talking to someone I respect helpful, but that's not an easy ask, I know that. Finding a good fit is hard.

Im glad you have friends to cheer you up, even if it's for short periods of time. Can you believe some of the things they tell you about yourself?

If you can, look around the forum, there are others here who understand. You are welcome to join conversations. Welcome to the forums.