My daughter is 4 and son is 6. She has retracted (and it is on file) the allegations about sexual abuse from 5 years ago. She has also said that she doesn’t think that I am physically hurting the kids. She still says she is scared of me and this is why I left the family home last night. There is no reason or logic in what she is saying but to her friends she is putting on a very calm and rational front. I am trying to keep it together but having a lot of trouble doing so. We were supposed to be going to the uk for a holiday and to see grandparents and great grandmother. She has now told me her and kids aren’t going. This is days after her suggesting getting tickets for us all to a West End show. We have probably spent about $10k so far and it’s all now wasted. She has said I can go on my own which shows how logical she is being. I am truly at a loss.