Hello @Shaz51 

It's so heartwarming to be remembered and thank you so much for checking in. 

On a scale of 1-10, I'm a bit low at a 4 or 5 today and have just been taking some quiet time to process, absorb and self care. 

1) Going well - I came back from a vacation and even though it feels like a distant memory now haha I'm so grateful and happy I could have those experiences and new job that's supporting financially to do that. I recognised I was feeling really lonely and remembered that I have this forum and I'm never alone 💪🏽❤️

2) Not going so well - Top 3 things I'm hoping to get some clarity on after

- repeated fights in the marriage triggered by actions and behaviours. I'm very confused how much is too much and what I need to do to take care of myself going forward. 

- New job is a sales job and is extremely stressful. No recognition or appreciation and they just expect more n more it's only 8 weeks! I have a very toxic colleague who used to do this job before that's quite insecure and has been very unsupportive and unhelpful. It's 5 full days of working from office with no WFH after 4 yrs of having my own flexibility and WFH, so it's a lot at the moment 😞

- I've no idea where to restart my self care from. I get only 2 days off and the grind starts again. I don't know how best to use it. I hate that my partner picks fights at these times too.. I'm so exhausted

What I want to do for myself

- Restart therapy and book my sessions

- Take time for myself to do whatever I want this weekend without my partner to get space from him - I'm annoyed at him very often and don't know if I should just leave if I find so many things about him icky 😞😂 It's impossible to have peace and harmony as he doesn't work on his stuff which is the main reason for repeating fights

- I'll do my basics as I have just been in bed in tears all morning and it's 1 pm. Maybe triggering my depression all this stress. I'll go shower, eat, and go for a walk with coffee. 

❤️💪🏽

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