Dear @MDT, I have days that are beyond awful myself. For me, calling Lifeline is part of my self help ritual for when things are beyond the pale. When days are really bad I have a shower by moonlight, watching the moon, stars and flying foxes overhead. In summer, the flying foxes fly over my bathroom window at dusk. Awesome. Once, when I was in the shower I saw a real shooting star flash from south to north, exploding over the bush near my house. A long shower, a hot chocolate and medicines to help me sleep are my common routine. I also find that eating meals comprised of fresh ingredients are a great way to feel nourished. Next week, when I have more money, I am going to my local Woolworths and I am going to spoil myself with a cheap seafood platter from lobster tails, king aussie prawns, fresh scallops and salmon or tuna fillets. I really love butterflies prawns marinated in garlic, chilli and olive oil cooked on the grill. I have learned that you have to do nice things for yourself sometimes... or maybe lots.

I hope you feel good soon.