Hi @Crystal04 welcome to the group.
I could write pages about feeling like a ghost in my family, so I know how you feel. It is draining and it can make you feel useless. For me it's important to remember that there could be many reasons why your family treats you like this. It could be that they think you are fine and just leave you be. It could be that they're all so wrapped up in themselves that they don't really pay much attention to you. Or it could be that they have their own issues they are dealing with.
It's probably more of a combination of these. Sometimes people close to us don't know how we're feeling and especially if we're struggling mentally. I know mine never noticed. Sometimes though we can keep too much to ourselves and while our struggles feel obvious to ourselves, other people don't see it.
It can get really hard at times and it can certainly feel like things will never change. It sounds like this is where you are at now. For me, getting out of that place started with me reaching out to people who had similar experiences and I felt comfortable talking to the about it. So hopefully you find that here. But I would also urge you to talk to your family if you haven't already. We can be our own worst enemies at times. We have doubts and fears about ourselves and hold on to them for so long that we start to see them as undeniable truths. That's when we need to reach out to people that can remind us that we aren't useless and we have a lot of positives and strengths that we've forgotten or ignored for too long.
Do you have anyone you can talk to, if not your family. I was put on a mental health care plan by my GP earlier in the year which gave me 10 heavily subsidised psychology visits which helped me. Even calling one of the crisis support lines listed on the right of the screen (below if you're on a mobile) may be helpful for you. It's really hard to get ourselves out of these dark holes we can find ourselves in and we end up needing help to get out. Posting here is a great start, people here are always happy to listen and offer any support they can. And if that is all you feel comfortable for the moment then that's okay, you're not alone here.
