TRIGGERRED!!!!!

[outlander]

Thank you for your lovely msg @Gumtree
I appreciate it.
I had another incident offline again and i still cant cry. I just sit here unable to do anything except feel the emotions going crazy

[Gumtree]

@outlander
I'm crying for you.big fat tears.
Is there anything you can feel that is soothing?
I like to sit in front of a heater when it's bad. After a while I can feel the heat on my back.

[Gumtree]

I call myself gumtree. Because that's where I first learnt to cry again. I had bottled up a decade of domestic violence with meds, drugs and alcohol. After stopping these. I spent a couple of years so upset that i couldn't cry.
Why do you relate to outlander?

[outlander]

@Gumtree

Theres nothing. I cant do anything. I had an emotionless shower. Sh hasnt even helped. The first ive done in 5 months. Im very dissapointed in myself.

I relate to outlander because that is the way i feel in this world. Like an outlander. An outkast. An alien.

[Gumtree]

Don't beat yourself up. Everyone with ptsd feels emotionless at times. You've had a real rough day by the sounds of things.
I remember you giving me some real good coping strategies. On another thread.
They helped. I may not have got through without some of those.
Thankyou and I'm sending you Love.

[outlander]

Ahh i thought you were familiar @Gumtree
Yes my mentor told me to fk off and my pop called me an embarrassment. So feeling gutted.
Yeah my ptsd is off the charts atm with so many flashbacks of the things in my life.
I am so glad those coping strategies i gave you helped. ❤❤

[outlander]

@bella  is gone @Former-Member bella is gone 😞 😞 

why did she leave 😞 😞 

[Gumtree]

Im sorry your having flashbacks .They really suck!
Music is a good way to drag yourself into the now.
It can't hurt you and you have full control in what you listen too.
Goodnight outlander.
Hope tomorrow is better for us both. ❤️❤️

[outlander]

thank you @Gumtree i hope you have a peaceful night too

[outlander]

Bella please come back 😞