hey @LovelyBones88 it's really good to hear from you.
sounds like you've gone through a lot in the last few days, that must've been pretty scary and confusing to experience. it's okay to take some time to process this, take things slow - things might not make sense right now but there's no rush in finding all the answers immediately either.
it's really great that you've got your social worker coming in to check-in on you each day, even if it's for a quick visit!
it takes a lot of strength to come here when you're fighting those urges so i hope you know how proud we are of you for reaching out. have you made a safety plan before? if you haven't already, creating one might be really useful so whenever those urges are strong, you can refer to the safety plan steps.
please don't hesitate to reach out to services like Lifeline and SCBS when you're feeling those urges:
here's some other resources too:
do you have a friend you can invite over? or any pets? i find that pets, particularly dogs can be really great at boosting mood, keeping us busy and also safe.
just know that you do have control of how you interpret your thoughts and you have control of your actions. it's hard when those intrusive thoughts pop in and say negative things, but you have the power to say those negative thoughts are wrong. that you are valued, worthy and important. that you do deserve to live, and explore and create. you matter. sitting with you 💜
