@Historylover wrote:
I speak with the registrar on Monday (tomorrow) to clarify which 'delusion/s' I am supposed to be suffering from. By their delay, I am being deprived of preparation time and that's a low move as it takes time to gather evidence and collate an argument.
Well, at least you get a week to prepare. Not ideal, I know, but it's better then just a couple of days, or less. Can you file for an extension if you need more time to prepare your defense?
I know you never asked for this fight, @Historylover , but you choose to stand tall and say what's really on your mind, rather then what the bosses want to hear. That takes bravery.
I mentioned earlier about how I pretended to agreed with my therapist that money is all you need to have a worthwhile life. It was the most sensible tactical move I had; the only thing I could do that would accomplish anything. I don't feel guilt or regret over (pretend) agreeing with her about that. But there are moments when I can't help but wonder if I might've sold my soul in that moment, just to be rid of her. Like, maybe there was some devil listening to that conversation or something, who took that lie as consent to stifle my life of all possible goodness, leaving only material baubles behind. I'm being overly poetic, I know, but I can tell you that it felt dirty agreeing to her rubbish for that one brief moment.
Maybe it is more noble to proudly admit your beliefs, even in the face of the hardest torments. Maybe, if nothing else, it is easier to live with yourself and what you've done. I honestly don't know. I don't do well when the right decision and the wrong decisions aren't clearly signposted.
Regarding your earlier comments on telepathy, and my beliefs regarding it... I will simply say that I've never had any personal experiance of it.
If it does exist at all, I suspect it must be quite selective.
As you know, I have an awful lot of difficulty communicating with others. It seems that, no matter how clearly I try to express my stance in the plainest english, I am frequently misconstrued. And I seem to be at a loss to understand many, many things which most other people pick up easily.
If there was some sort of underlying mental link between us, I would think it would be easier for us to understand one another, not more difficult.
My experience has been that, not only is there no default connection between myself and others, but that it's all but impossible to construct one with our extremely versatile english language, no matter how much effort we pour in to doing so.
But that's just my experience; upon which I've built my understanding of this world. I can't deny that it's entirely possible that others have been born far more in-tune with the people around them; perhaps even to the point where they are able to transmit and recieve meaningful mental messages to one another.
I was watching this video the other day about currant computer brain-reading technology. A test subject had sensors stuck to their head, then was made to watch videos - a flyover of some waterfalls in a jungle; and then a scene of walking through an outdoor restraunt. The computer, reading this persons brain waves, constructed a video sequence of a flyover of some waterfalls in a jungle, followed by a walkthrough of an outdoor restraunt!
The specific details of what the subject was shown and what the computer "imagined" were completely differant; but the basic premise of the videos were identical! So, to me, that proves that our brains are, to some degree "transmitting" our thoughts out, in a way that can at least be picked up with purpose-made computer sensors. Whose to say that an unusually advanced human brain wouldn't be able to pick these signals up and decipher them, too?
