Oh no, sorry to hear you're really in the thick off it 😞 mind & body. Hope you get well soon. I was up till 4am, then at it again 8am do finally crashed & got 5hrs sleep 3-8pm do sleep / rest all over the place but just whatever it takes. My aches and pain suck and boring to talk about, lower back & sciatica the worst. Rt knee still bruised & swollen from fall, shoulder bursitis flaits up when overdoingbit (have to hug a thick pillow to ease that enough yo sleep). And bruises, never had so many bruises from walking into things etc. Really pushing the body but, well, its good I clean up my own mess here. Mum mum left us with everything in such a mess (house and legals), its been horrible, don't wanna do that to my son, simply must clean up properly.
Just takes me so long... cause the back goes & I have to hotpack & rest outout the spasms etc, and then there's the emotions, the mind back flip... & I fall apart... go to bed crying for two days, and the muscles hurt to move... do tired...
But somehow bounce back, quicker than usual, and get on track again, chugchug.... its a real rollercoaster ride atm. Just wanna go into a coma and rest a while. Or rest on the beachbeach for a week listening to the waves, or or something hn.
Not wanting to rush back after all this, to have to SPOON FEED dad's new public guardian etc Try eorknout if dads better left in care etc. And how to tell him that 😞
But ... Deal with that next week... gotta do 'present moment' to cope
"one day at a time..."
I need a smoke...
Sorry this is so long...
