Red's house

[The-red-centaur]

@tyme sorry about my comments earlier, I knew they weren't in guidelines, but still said that stuff,

I spoke to a counsellor and my support worker. I've taken some (correct doages) medication. Hopefully I'll sleep, and tomorrow will be better. 

This is all really messing with my head too much. I feel like I don't really exist. 

Also I swear someone is at my windows, I hear and see stuff outside. It is not there, I know that. Grrr go away whatever youare, I need to sleep. Come back tomorrow if you have ot be there. For now fk off. 

[The-red-centaur]

I'm so tired.

[The-red-centaur]

@tyme thank you for closing my other discussion. 

Im sorry if I triggered something in every one. Hope they are ok. 

Me: i don't know how to be ok rn. But they put me into the psych ward for a few days. I want to go home, but know I needed it. I will get back on track, I just have to trust the process and lean on the support available to me. 

[tyme]

Thank you for understanding @The-red-centaur .

I recognise how hard things are for you at the moment. I wish I could take the pain away from you.

Please know we care and we look forward to seeing you back on track and sharing your artistic talents. 

I continue to be so proud of how far you have come. There may be some bumps along the way, but I believe in you. We'll get through this together.

[The-red-centaur]

@tyme thank you. 

I thank you for the great work you do here. Your story is an inspiration, maybe that can be my reason too, to show that everything isn't always so dark, and the cracks of light can also show the way for others. 

[tyme]

Hey @The-red-centaur , I've just joined you at your 'house' here 🙂

Thinking about you.

[The-red-centaur]

Things are hard. I can't deal with memories. It's too hard to communicate. I'm going offline for a while. Sorry. 

[tyme]

Hope you are okay @The-red-centaur 

Take care.

[The-red-centaur]

@tyme thank you for asking. 

Today marks a dark time in my life. At 17, when my world turned upside down and I survived my first attempt. At 20 From a coma. Etc. 

I have been pushing memories of those things away, focusing on other things. But the past has a way of haunting me when I rest. He will be in my mind forever, his words seared into my soul, his actions and then the path I followed afterwards, leading me towards darkness. 

[tyme]

@The-red-centaur , yet despite the pain, the hurt, the attempts, you have braved on. You have fought, You have pushed through, you have grown. This is what we look at. You are a powerful person and you have a lot going for you.

You know yourself how much you have grown over the years. Remember this.