Dealing with intrusive thoughts - my struggle!

[Molliex]

Being out of work is hard @BlueBay , it's easy to fall into depression when there isn't much structure to your day.

I've been there, i know how hard it is. Are there hobbies, walks, etc. that you can do so that you're keeping occupied?

Thinking of you x

[BlueBay]

I have a few hobbies but the motivation is not there. Tiday I did a little housework then layed down in bed with curtain down. It's like I want to hibernate from the world. 
@Molliex 

[Angels333]

Hey @Molliex   and @BlueBay thinking about you both 💙💙💙

I've been reading the forum but I haven't been commenting much, but I am still here...

Angels333 

[BlueBay]

Morning @Angels333 

thanks for thinking of me. ❤️
how are you going?

Where I live it's smokey. I wanted to go fir a walk but with my asthma starting to flare up I'm staying indoors. 

hi 👋 @Molliex thinking if you. How are you this morning? ❤️

[Angels333]

Hey @BlueBay Sorry to read about the smoke that's effecting you.

I'm really tired atm 😨 I am working lots, everyday Mon to Friday and I just don't want to be at work.  When I get home this afternoon I think I will take a nap!   

What do you have planned today?

[BlueBay]

It must be hard working full time @Angels333 

today I'm going to hospital (where I usually get admitted fir mh) and enquire about doing an outpatient class. And I'm going in as an inpatient in 2 weeks. 

this afternoon I've got an appt with my exercise physiologist and planning on what to do this year in regards of fitness. He has been very supportive of my mental health. 

Enjoy your well deserved nap this arvo !!!  ❤️

[Molliex]

Hi @Angels333 and @BlueBay

So nice of you to drop by Angels. I think about you often and hope that you're managing. I haven't SH this year, and I haven't really thought about it, so I'm proud of that.

I'm doing ok. Looking forward to my first psych appt for the year next week. 

I hope you get some rest and time to do something nice🌻💚

Sounds like a busy day Blue Bay. Is your planned hospital admission for MH or something else? (you don't have to share if you don't want to). Your exercise physiologist sounds like a really supportive, helpful person to have in your life. I hope the smoke clears soon 💜💙

[BlueBay]

Hi @Molliex  i keep forgetting to tag you in my post. 
I lost my job before Christmas and Friday last week was my last day. It's been terribly sad. I've been angry emotional numb. I saw my psych last week and he wants me in hopefully 28 jan. if not earlier. 
now I'm home I've got no motivation and can't be bothered. 
im tired anxious and stressed. 

[Molliex]

Hello lovely people.

I haven't been around much lately. Work and life has been so busy, and I haven't been able to be online so much. 

Overall I think my MH is doing better. The SH has stopped and SI lessened. My pdoc is very posittive about my development, although we still have things to work on - especially around anxiety and self-worth.

My new meds are better, I think they have alot to do with the change. Although they have one side effect that I am struggling with, so I will talk to my pscyhatrist at our next appointment.

I have good days and I have very bad days, but I think the baseline of my bad days isn't as low as before. A large part of anxiety these days is the fear of falling back into that very dark place. I am still very triggered by certain things, although I seem to get out of my 'funk' a little easier.

The bushfire stuff is still impacting me. Asthma hasn't been good, and there are still days I can't go outside. I also struggle with the guilt of complaining about it, when I am relatively safe. I wasn't around on Tuesday, but i went back and read the Topic Tuesday // Your mental health and the recent bushfires // Tues 28 Jan, 7pm AEST and there are some good things there.

So i just have to keep on keeping on, although i still have days I want to give up. Keep working on the CBT and mindfulness. Keep going to the gym. Keep on trying to be kind to myself. (that last one is really hard).

Thinking of you all often. Apologies for being a little more in the shadows 

@outlander @BlueBay @Angels333 @Owlunar @Former-Member @MDT @eth @greenpea @Gazza75 @Shaz51 and anyone else who drops by the thread x

[Former-Member]

Heaps of positives there @Molliex . Really pleased to hear your update. Keep up the good work. 😀👍💕