Dealing with intrusive thoughts - my struggle!

[Molliex]

Thank you all for your thoughts. I'm here tomorrow, and off to NZ on Saturday. I'll be unable to use the forum while I'm away. 

Tough day. Even before I heard about my Nana, I had a panic attack walking to work because I couldn't stop coughing from the smoke.

Tomorrow I have to pack and write eulogy. 🌻💚

[Molliex]

Hi all. The trip home was hard. I'm really relieved I managed to read the long eulogy and be one of the pallbearers. I love my Nana so much. I'm grateful I could do that. My parents were too upset, so if I didn't go, our words would not have been shared. My Dad told me how proud he was if me. 

The flight home was horrific, such bad turbulence. I did not manage well. 

Now that I'm home and things are back to normal, I'm just so damn tired. Depression seems better but anxiety and OCD worse. I managed not to SH for a couple of weeks, but I've stumbled again. I'm just so tired of life right now. Need to dig deep and focus on the good things. 

I see my psychologist and psychiatrist next week, so it will be interesting to see what they suggest. 

@Shaz51 @outlander @Angels333 @BlueBay @Former-Member @eth @Former-Member @MDT @Owlunar @TAB and anyone else who is reading xoxo 🌻💚🌻💚

[TAB]

Sounds like a plan and well done @Molliex 😸

[MDT]

@Molliex 🙂

[outlander]

@Molliex ❤❤❤

[saturnzoon]

@Molliex 

[BlueBay]

❤️ @Molliex  Xxoo

[Angels333]

@Molliex You were so brave doing the eulogy.   It sounds like your nana was a wonderful person.

Sending my love to you xx

[Owlunar]

Hi @Molliex 

Welcome back to Aus  - it sounds as if your flight over The Ditch was challenging  but you're back now and with memories worth having  

And no SH for 2 weeks  - well done!!

I wish you the best with your appointments next week and it's great to see you again 

Dec 

[eth]

Welcome home @Molliex   Good on you for being brave and strong for your family while you were away.  Very sorry to hear you've stumbled with sh since returning.  Hope we can support you not to repeat it while you get through the days til your appointments.  Glad to hear they are this week.  Take care of you xx