Morning has broken

[outlander]

thanks @Eve7 i know i have some skills but just feels more then that. i dont know how to explain it. i guess i jsut wish sometimes i had a 'normal' upbringing not full of trauma and responsibilites/expectations and phyiscal ailments. it feels like im already so old. i dont know anymore.

ive done around 5 online courses in the past not that i can remember much of the content in them. dropped out of my last 2 courses. couldnt handle the extra things needing to be done and couldnt retain any information.

[Eve7]

I see you as experienced rather than old @outlander I didn’t have a “normal upbringing” either so I’m with you on that one although I didn’t realise mine wasn’t normal until I was older.

I am sorry it’s like this for you sweetie and you do deserve better. I wish you had some real life supportive friends.

My brain is a bit off track tonight but I see you as having so much potential. 

I can stay with you xo

💙💜💙

[outlander]

thanks @Eve7 i realise how different my upbringing is esp when it comes to what people would normally be doing around my age like uni or travelling, working and/or dating. ive done none of that. its complicated i guess.

thanks for being here

are you going ok after your family event earlier?

[Eve7]

It doesn’t mean all that won’t happen in your life and you have time on your side @outlander but I hear what you’re saying.

My day was complicated. I spent 3 days in hospital last week and my family act like nothing occurred and still expected me to cook the Sunday roast. I am a bit out of sorts.

[outlander]

yes id wondered how your family was around you after what happened earlier in the week @Eve7
im sorry they still expected the sunday roast. were they at least kind to you?
its tiring being around family though esp after an event like earlier and just in general. it feels like i need a week to recover after family events so can understand how you might be feeling atm.

Have you had a chance to breathe and rest abit since theyve left?

[Eve7]

I am resting now @outlander S1 is here and little ones asleep.

They are all nice to me but they just ignore my mh as it’s too hard.

I am thinking I’ll just return to work and pretend this year never happened.

[outlander]

Hugs @Eve7 thats tough.
I have a family who is very unaccepting of my mh but if anyone else has it wether they are family or not all their effort gets thrown into helping them. Its tough but im glad they are nice to you.
💛💛

[Eve7]

Don’t go @outlander . It’s a big plate xo

[Eve7]

I think I’ve seen some of your messages out of sequence or my brain is just muddled.

i am in bed so will say good night..

I am sorry your family doesn’t accept your mh and I don’t think they deserve you. I hope you find something better one day and that would include people who love you unconditionally.

💙💜💙

[Eve7]

Growing potatoes @NatureLover @outlander 

Have a pleasant day 💜🧡💛