@Anastasia
I can't see what you see in me at this point. In saying that I'm thankful to you for lifting me up. In time, however long that time takes. I'm actually doing nothing at all this afternoon. I'm about to have a nap as I'm tired. I will agree that I have worked very hard though. Love you @Anastasia ♥️ 🌷
@Anastasia @Zoe7 I got two phone calls from a real estate while I was at the shop. I knew they were coming. I offered this morning to be a reference because one of her old landlords was bit responding and they needed another reference. I knew she had no one else. So, it was them ringing for the reference. I took both calls and gave her the reference she needed. At the moment it is looking string that she might get this place. She will find out thus afternoon. She may get it, she may not but it's looking string from what the agent was saying to me.
Where I'm at with it in all honesty. I don't know? I don't know what to feel or think. I don't know what to say it do. I'm just like a robot. Maybe I can no longer access my feelings? They are there perhaps but can't access them.
So who knows really. I realised there is no connection left. There's just nothing. The bond we hadz the connection we had is not there. Not for me anyway. Font know what to make of that one.
I told her about a week ago that when she moved out, that would be my goodbye. I will not be staying in touch. Yes, it hurt saying, yes it was hard saying it. I just had no trust left. I thought what really us the point in staying in touch. If she still wanted to be with me, then that would be obvious and she would tell me. Anyhow, I'm too tired to think, feel, talk. I just do not know. I guess that is it really. When she walks out the door and is gone, she is gone. *shrugs* just be a robot.
